Casual Rambles

               While writing this article, I am playing the Old Song by Barry Manilow on YouTube. My location is at Shangri-la Mall, facing the Kenny Roger's restaurant.  I just ordered parmesan cheesy chicken poppers @Pepa Wings and yes I'm alone.                 I have been a widow for 9 years now and turning another milestone in 3 years.  So near and I'm retiring from the dating circle, I know.  Sometimes it is sad that I dream of marrying a person and to grow old with one just to be alone but I know I'm not the only one.  I'm a bit of a reckless person when I was young.  I did risky decision in my love story playbook.  I don't know how to put things into words. It's just that I choose people I want to be part of my life, and I think I choose well just to turned out lonely at the end of it all.  I was married for 11 years and bore a son now turning 18 this...

          This is my first entry for this year 2026.           The decision you made yesterday will be the future you will hold tomorrow but even if you know exactly what you want to do and how to make things happen for you but it didn't happen. Let's say you finished high school education and you want to pursue a certain degree in college.  You know that it's something you really want to take to reach your goal in life, but one way or another, the path you try to invade is not the one you will lead after high school.  I always want to write and pursue journalism but when I went to study in a state university, the course I wanted to pursue already closed for enrollment, leading me to decide another degree instead just to be in that university.  Anyway, in my mind, I can still pursue it in the future.             But it didn't happen.  I was led to a different life and ...

             I have been ghosted in one of the relationships I had in the past.  Ghosting is simply having to disappear in one's life without a trace.  Just abrupt disconnection. No valid explanation.  Most men do this on purpose because they can't break up with their women.  They choose not to communicate for so many reasons.  One of which is because they are involved with another person (third party), they lost the feeling and they don't want to explain or see how badly it can be to see the other party get hurt or they don't really have feelings at all.                 The intensity of being left behind is very traumatic if there's a relationship or feelings involved.  I can tackle this  topic the whole day and set an example but I just want to discuss some few situations where this ghosting happen along the way while things are going fine.     ...

                             Have you been in this kind of situation where you are loving the person yet no commitment? When you say commitment, it means you are legally his or her significant other.  Your friends know about it and your family as well.                    But when it's the other way around, it's  a secret affair or what they call now as "situationship".  You do what any normal couple do in secret.  It's the worst kind of relationship to some and best to some few.  Here's why.                To some people, this kind of relationship is very beneficial especially when it comes to having privacy.  You don't have to make an impression to anybody.  It's just you and your partner having the special moment together.  No intrigue, no issues.  ...

          I'm watching Netflix series "Maid" and I love every episode. It pinches my heart a little each day.  The main character is also a frustrated writer.  She clean houses for a living when she got out from her abusive husband and then she write stories of these people she clean houses with.  She has a lunatic artist mom who have been her burden as well as her anchor.  Great story line and acting.  I learned a lot from what it takes to be a woman in deepest shit and sense.  I'm a single mom now, a struggling one so the burden is really chaotic most of the time but looks serene outside.  Totally just like what the character they portray in the series.  It takes a lot of courage to make things happen.        I never really want anyone to know my thoughts but this blog helps me a lot, not to live in my own little cave but to expose a little about myself in my own terms and definition.  ...

              The hardest part in life is not how to live it but how to survive it.           I'm a single mom with a teenage son.  I live paycheck to paycheck & a few bucks from a death pension of my husband. Needless to say, my life is not luxurious.  I start creating small-time business in the past.  I cooked rice meals and offer it to my workmates.  I buy & sell boneless bangus (milk fish) straight from Pangasinan. I do pre-order so I would know how many pieces I shall buy, and most likely I can sold 60 pieces in one go.  I also do made-to-order pasta in a tray.  I just discontinue it due to my health.  It was really hard to juggle my night work and my small hustle at the same time, also considering the fact that I have no vehicle to travel all my goods.  I just put everything in a trolley and carry it with me.  I have to take taxi just to get in the office....